Better Days

Guys. Be serious with me for a second. 

Do I look old? Older than 21? 

Recently I’ve been told that I look seriously OLD. I’ve been mistaken for 21, 26, and worst 30 years old, a graduate student, or a transferred student. I always correct them and say, “Oh no I’m just 18!” or “I’m a first year!” I always get this reaction: 

O.O SHIT YOU ARE? 

O.O WOOH WHO KNEW?

O.O SERIOUSLY? 

YOU LOOK OLD.

Due to these repeated incidence in the last two weeks, I feel old. Is it because I’m too stressed out? Do I overwork myself? Is it because I’ve haven’t wax my eyebrows in a while so I look gross? My glasses?  …I don’t understand. I don’t want to look old! I should go buy contacts BUT BUT BUT too busy. too poor. and too tired. 

LIFE IS DIFFICULT 

OTL

It sucks when you’re trying to hold back tears and you’re doing so well THEN a person notices and points out that you’re crying or ask you why you are crying and after that moment, all your strength disappears and your tears become uncontrollable, spilling out like a continuous waterfall, and you can’t do anything but cry until your eyes are red and hurt.

I’ve always understood this phrase but never experienced it in my life.

NOW, I KNOW THIS SAYING WAY TOO WELL. During the summer, I would pray that I would have something to do. I WOULD pray for school to start and for work but now, I HAVE TOO MANY THINGS GOING ON! I’M NEVER HOME…..AND I DISLIKE IT!

Juggling college, work, church, and regular friend hangs outs - OMGOODNESS! GAHHH. SO HARD. SO HARD.  

Talk about getting slapped in the face by reality/”adult life!”

FML.

Been out of the house since 7AM. Ate fastfood. Drove a shitload. No rest. No rest.

-DIES FROM FATIGUE-